And if you're a woman you know what I'm talking about. The lunar cycle always finds away to spoil our most looked forward to plans. So, due to erm...heavy flow, I will not be going this weekend. To be frank about the physical aspects of it, I can't imagine trying to change a pad in an outhouse in the dark (for starters), I don't like sitting on an outhouse toilet long enough to pee and wipe. Then you have the fact that my first few days (I started today) are filled with cramps that would be very distracting to the peace I was going to seek. It's very hard to concentrate on meditation when all you can think about is a giant clamp taking hold of your lower innards, squeezing as tightly as possible and then twisting this way and that.

There is a spiritual side to it though, and I believe many native americans believed something like it too. Although there are plenty of cultures where this state is considered unclean and the woman is isolated during it, I believe at least a few Native Americans look at the interference it has on magic and spiritual endeavors--it is disturbing to whatever magic or energies are trying to be raised, too chaotic. I've been told by a wiccan priestess friend that I should come to their celebrations anyway because they believe that the lunar cycle is beneficial in magickal workings as it holds a great deal of power that they can work with and it is a natural process at that, signifying the great circle of life--death and rebirth and all that. Well, even if I wasn't inclined to listen to the wisdom of Native Americans, I personally don't see how the cycle can be beneficial. It's not wonderful, it's disgusting, it feels disgusting it looks disgusting, I'm often in pain from cramps and uncomfortable and I'm moody too--that's another indication to me that it's not a good time to mess around with magical and spiritual energies. If I can't even keep my hormones in check and thus my mood, how can I expect to keep the I'm working with in check--they will likely become just as chaotic as my hormones. While I don't believe in isolating myself from life during this time (though most of the times I really wish to lol), I do think they were right about the energies the cycle produces and how it should be kept from working with spiritual/magical energies. It's just not practical in today's society to say, I'm having my lunar cycle and must isolate myself now, I'll be back at work in a week! You may be able to claim religious belief and get away with it at work BUT it will not work financially.

Michael is still away for the weekend though, so at least I can stay home and catch up on my meditation, cramps are distracting, but I'm not really working with spiritual energies other than my own in meditation, so I believe it will be fine. One of the purposes of this trip was to call for my animal guide and possibly do a little other realm traveling--not a good idea when you don't even have a full reign on the energies within. So, I'm thinking I might try to get away with it next weekend, and if not, then the weekend after July 4th. I think I still might go out to the nature preserve tomorrow for meditation and trail walking. One way or another though, I need to get back out to nature this weekend, even if only for a couple of hours.

Anyway, that's the end of one of my grossest entries, I promise not to mention this particular topic again lol.

06/15/04 :: 07/02/04

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