Fortunately. And it WILL get better! I am back to being just Michael, Nicki, Roman and myself, no Jason. Sorry Jason, but you cramp my spiritual style--it's hard to focus on the spirit when you're constantly focusing on the mess certain people bring into your life when they're around, not to mention constantly around living with you. It's already been getting better. Today was the first day since, that I have actually meditated for more than 15 mins. It was only a half hour, but it was of higher quality than any span of the 15 minute sessions prior to the upheaval. In fact, I really like the spot I found for it by a tree on a little kind of dry mossy seat between it's half circle of roots to nestle in (yes, my back was straight and my legs folded as I'd been instructed for proper flow of energies--and no, I didn't lean on the tree or I would have been reclining). It was very nice and it just put some peace in my spirit--or at least more than what I already had. Now all that needs to be done is to get Jason's left over stuff that he didn't take with him OUT of my apartment and burn a little Sage leaf after my mom leaves on Sunday (my mom can't stand herbal smells like that and she's in town until Sunday, staying at my apartment). My apartment needed physical cleaning again--two sink-fulls of dishes that my mom kindly did 3/4 of for me so I could do the massive chunk of homework/test studying I had last night.

Sooooooooooo, now it comes down to this. I only have about an hour to kill at school M-R and I have to exercise at the fitness center for a grade too, do I relinquish this wonderful spot and meditate elsewhere, or do I sacrifice work out time and only do one work out of 15mins (I have to change and clean up a little before and after my work out) and meditate 20 (gotta give myself time to walk to class)? Or do I choose one over the other and do the unchosen once or twice a week the whole free time? I think, first, I'll look at my schedule and kind of play it by ear.

Time to work for my areté of the soul~

--Saronai

07/02/04 :: 09/21/04

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