It can't ever be all good I guess
Aug 11, 2004

Well, I'm totally moved out of my mom's and into my cousin's house and it's great here, we are getting along perfectly *silly hat break--don't ask* ahem, back to what I was saying...the apartment actually holds more than we thought it would without looking too cramped, Yin is using the litter pan again and she only went out of it the first two days and it was on cleanable surfaces and a rug that we can put in the washer (that has already been washed) and Roman (my cousin's son) doesn't appear to be allergic to her and the apartment doesn't smell like cats.

I'm registered for classes full time again for a total of 12 hours. I can get that President's List certificate this time! The last couple semesters I didn't get it because I wasn't registered for enough hours for my A's to count that way. I'm taking Japanese Culture (3 credits), Fitness Center (1 credit), Windows XP online (2 credits), Intro to Philosophy (3 credits), and Survey of Stats (3 credits). Wow O.O that sounds like a lot when I say them altogether. I WILL handle them all this time and still get A's in them all! I have to! I NEED to prove that I can handle Michael, a job, and full time schedule, I WANT that President's List Certificate!

An update on my brother, I won't be giving anymore info about him online or about what my mom is up to either, just in case. I will leave you with some good news about him though. The charges of any kind of murder or battery have been dropped and now he is going to trial on obstruction of justice charges this Monday which the Prosecution will probably lose anyway though he may not be out next Monday. Thanks everyone who has kept my brother in your prayers and/or thoughts! It was horrible that someone died that night, but it would be twice a crime to punish an innocent person just because he was there. Unfortunately we think at least the family of the victim will always believe Adam guilty because he was charged with 4 counts of 1st degree murder in the first place not to mention they don't know all the people directly involved so they don't actually know as much of the whole story as we do. My thoughts and prayers go out to them that they will find peace and a resolution to the loss of their family member, forgiveness for those directly involved, and the openness to see just how uninvolved Adam was (Ok, I can't say he was completely uninvolved, he was the only one out there that tried to physically help the victim once everyone realized he was badly hurt--many of the witnesses, as well as Adam attest to that, though Adam said all the blood made him sick and he couldn't handle it anymore). I've heard that they think anyone there the night their loved one died should be punished in some way I pray that if they do indeed feel that way, they come to realize that in exchange that means that had someone else died that night and their loved one had just been there as Adam had, they are essentially saying that their loved one should be punished for the murder too. Though in such moments of pain I can understand short-sightedness and perhaps even a need for vengeance, I think I am empathic enough to not let those feelings win, but I still can see how they understandably effect others.

Anyhow, that's all I'll say about my brother's situation and anything connected with it from this point on in my journal.

So what's the bad? I have no car, once school starts though I think I will be alright, I have a ride covered (so long as Jason can get his now broken down car fixed in time to take Michael to my sister's and bring him home everyday and drop me off at school on Tuesdays and Thursdays before he goes to work in the morning. Then I'm car pooling with someone who goes to DACC at some of the same times I do throughout the week and goes to where I work afterwards at the same time too, I pretty much just need to get from school to work on Tuesdays and Thursdays which my boss said would be ok if I was a half hour late (the bus system will make me a half hour late) and stayed a half hour after we are technically supposed to be closed.

My mom sold her house, Yay! The family who bought it seemed to be very happy, apparently they've been living in an extremely cramped trailer for awhile (yes, I know topic jump lol) and they liked my garden ^_^

Oh, yeah, back to the rest of the bad. Jason (the ex) doesn't have a place of his own yet (he started his job only a couple of weeks ago) and he's running out of places to stay so he has been staying with my cousin and I for about two weeks now after the first week I told him I would like him out in three weeks because I don't want to make Nicki be mad about the extra person, and I also don't want him to get too used to staying here all the time because I don't want him here all the time, it's like we're back together. I have to do more housework than I did the week when it was just me, Nicki, Roman, and Michael, I have to buy more food and he's stingy with his car on top of it. It's HIS car (he only was able to buy it because he got a huge tax return because he got to claim Michael, and besides, I only wanted to use it to get Michael to the babysitter and myself to school and work and pick michael up, pick Jason up and go home--all of this will be while he is at work not using it and he knows I would pay for my share in gas, I even offered to help pay insurance, which he doesn't have right now but he doesn't want to depend on me *looks at him asleep in her apt. for free eating the food she buys* sounds like a load of excuses to be stingy to me.

Anyhow, I'm overall happy. It's still fairly easy to keep this apt. clean and it is really clean (because of the state of my mom's floors and the leaks in the roof that were getting pretty bad it didn't feel clean even when it was) looking to begin with. Anyhow, I'll be happier when Jason has his own place and I've got the ride situation covered (I can't do car payment type situations 'cause I don't have the credit nor do I have the money for a car payment AND full coverage insurance).

Well, catch ya later, I've got a sink full of dishes calling my name!

Ja ne!