Well, that hit a brick wall shortly after it began. I only did it for a few days. The good news is, I've gotten to the point where I wake up a lot earlier than I was. However, just because I failed at the main objective does not mean the task is not worth retrying. If I keep trying at this, eventually what I want will take place, and I can work through these off times of allergies and asthma-like symptoms (like I've been having yesterday and today). I feel like I've accomplished nothing these past two days and it makes me feel all the more horrid and useless. I don't like to feel lazy, but my energy gets sapped by these outside forces I can't seem to control.

I need to take charge of the forces I can control, drink more water, less sugared drinks, wake up early, stretch to wake up, do some light exercise at least, let the sun in instead of keeping the house dark during the day, clean up around here and keep it clean, take my vitamins, let in some fresh air for at least an hour a day, even if it's cold outside. I can do this, I know I can. I can get my life back into a working routine, a flexible and working routine. I can make it work so that I write more, I create more. I can write and I will.